A Big Ball Of Stress

Well, since it's been forever since I've posted a real entry...

Right now, I guess I'm good, but I'm under so much stress. Things are kind of...shaky at work, and I'm a little concerned for my job right now. The first half of the week was actually okay at work, I was feeling pretty good despite taking phone calls. :)

I'm also stressing about money. And to a lesser degree, my social life.

I haven't been on AIM lately, and though I've been hanging out with people, there are some that I neglect. Ray's one of them...I didn't get to see Noel when I was in Poulsbo last week...I don't really see much of James anymore. I need an extra day a week. :(

And the message board...geez. I have a ton to do and I still need to e-mail Adam. I feel like I haven't really been around that that much.

I really liked Wednesday. Reneé came over. It was so good to see her! :) We exchanged presents of alcohol. LOL We went to a little cafe, had dinner, then came back here. We talked about a lot of things...she's really sweet. :) I'll be seeing her today at the General Meeting.

Thursday was cool, I got some running around done and played King's Cup with the roomies, Bandon, Lauren, and Rich. Lots of fun, Lauren made a rule that everytime someone said "drink", you had to drink. Great rule. :) After the game, just lots of silly antics. Weaver and I found some of Nikki's wigs and we were rocking out. I'll post the pic soon. :)

Friday was nice too, for the most part. I had a pretty bad hangover and I was late picking Squeek! up. Doh! `^_^ But we had a tasty lunch and went hunting for my tye-dye tux. Sadly, white is not in at the moment. But I'll figure something out. We went over to Bandon's where I watched some LA Sailor Moon and she coordinated the covoy for today. That girl is a ball of energy! I wish I had that kind of energy...

What made Friday so-so was what Nikki told me. She had spent the day with Mika and apparently they had talked a lot. Mika wants to meet with me and try and talk things out.

I'm just so unsure. I want to meet her, I want us to be friends so we can hang out again and so that everyone doesn't have to feel awkward. Though, it seems like most people are pretty neutral on the subject anyway. But there is just so much pain left. I'm fine not being with her, but she really hurt me...I wonder if she understands that. She says she does, but I really do not trust her or her word at this point.

So...I don't want to meet her (I know, back and forth). But she's going to the Gameworks meet, so I'm going to HAVE to see her there...I'm almost thinking of not going now.

I still have to thank everyone again for being there for me. Just letting me bitch a little bit to you helps more than you know. *hugs his friends* I dunno what'll happen from here, but...we'll see.

Well...gah, now I'm really happy. `^_^ I'm gonna take off for Oregon and the General Meeting. I'll play some Game Boy on the way down and that'll cheer me up. :)