What's On My Mind

• I don't think I'm going to eat anything like that Philly Cheesesteak again. While I'm not exactly eating salad every meal, I've been eating a lot healthier, and I think my body just did not like all that grease. `^_^
  

• Do you know how hard it is to find somewhat-good-for-you ramen? Most of them have TONS of fat, mostly saturated.
  

• I'm hoping to get started on a book here pretty soon, I'm not going to go into what it's about, but it's an idea I've been throwing around in my head. Now I just need to find the time...
  

• While I'll say this in general, I think this would also apply to certain people that are having emotional problems with their relationships with the opposite gender. I remember when Melissa broke up with me and it felt like the most horrible thing in the world. When you start planning your future around someone and then they're taken out of the equation, it just screws with your mind. Melissa and mine's break up was not a pretty one, either. There were a lot of hurt feelings on both sides, and lots of things said out of pain and anger were spoken aloud. But the fact is, I moved on. At the time I didn't think I was going to be okay. But you have to move on.
  

  As much as you want to devote yourself to that person, you can only do so much. It takes two to be in a relationship and be in love. It's hard to say what will happen between Melissa and I, but for the most part things are okay between us. Maybe we're not the best of friends (or hard to say what kind of friendship we may or may not have), but at least most if not all of the anger and pain is gone. If it's just one person with the feelings, well, it depends on how far they take it. It can go anywhere from sweet and innocent to downright creepy (though I'm glad I don't think I ever reached that level. Blantent stupidy, yes, but not creepiness). You can't make someone else happy until you're happy with yourself. Being generally mopey isn't going to help. Yes, you're totally allowed to be sad and depressed, to get all the anger, pain, and sadness out, but turning those emotions into a weird obsession just isn't healthy. I thought that once I found love, that was all I would need in life, that I wouldn't need anything else, and that that was the most important thing to me and screw everything else if it got in the way. I was definately like that when I was with Melissa.
  

  But, I think it's good that I had that heart break. Heh, I wouldn't have said that months ago, but it really is something that everyone should go through. It really is like a callus on your foot; while you might feel a little less, be not quite as sensitive, it really does help guard against painful abrasions and cuts. I'm not cold-hearted or anything now. :) I think I'm just a little more prepared to deal with what heart break can give. Love is still something that I want someday, but I know there's a lot more to life than just that. It's the frosting on the cake of life. :) I can be single now, though it would be nice to be in a relationship, I know I can survive and be happy on my own.
  

• Sakura Con is only 16 days away, and I'm confident this year will be a lot better than last year. I'll actually have a costume(s) and I'm not going to get into a fight with my significant other (since I don't have one). And it's looking like I'm going to have plenty of money this year...between a nice big paycheck and a little money that Nikki and Melissa owe me, I should be good to go!
  

• I'm way too excited, my little sister will be here tomorrow night! Kawaii desu yo! :) I'm working on turning her onto anime, so we're going to start out simple with some Saint Tail. A Magical Transformation Girl series would be a good start. Oh, and Kiki's Delivery Service. And maybe...hmm...something a little more action packed? I'll have to look through my DVDs.
  

• I'm probably going to be taking Psychology 100 this summer with Dude Apathy. I want to get back into the swing of things with school, and that sounded like an interesting course.

That's it for now (for those that actually read through all of that). Though I've been getting a little annoyed at times, overall things are actually really great. :)