Emo

I haven't really posted lately, comments or posts, because I've been quite emo lately. That includes such things as usually answering the phone (sorry Karl, I'll get back to you). Usually when I'm feeling crappy my instinct is to just go ahead and hibernate in my room. I can play games, try and lift my mood, and no one has to deal with my whiny crap (unless they happen to read LJ posts like this). :)

Most of it's nothing new. Same old, same old. I'm painfully inching forward towards my goals, but it's like I'm a slug and the goal's ten miles down the road. It feels like it's taking FOREVER.

New stuff? The holidays are bumming me out, which has to be the first time in 25 years that they have EVER made me feel down. I was hoping to be able to buy a few and good gifts for some of my friends and family, and while I realize that the holidays shouldn't be about material gifts...still. I was looking forward to a nice, quiet Christmas with my mom, step-dad, and little sister; instead I have to drive up to some island two HOURS north of here at the crack of dawn Christmas morning. I know, something I probably shouldn't bitch about. -_-

The rest is the same: money, self-esteem, relationships, time, not moving forward nearly as fast as I want to, work. My diet seems to be the one thing that I'm doing half-way decent on, though even that hasn't been great at times. And drinking; I haven't had any hard liquor in like two weeks.

I don't even really feel like going to all the events that are planned this month. I've noticed that I've been subtly (at least to me) snapping at people; I'd rather confine myself than be an asshole to my friends.

Well, back to work.