dudelovenext

First off, wow, thank you so much to everyone. You all are constant reminders that I have a terrific bunch of friends. :) Thanks for your well-wishes and such. :)

I left for work Tuesday morning and got a call from my mom. "I love you, honey" was how she started the call. I knew that was it right there, but I still made her say it. I think I was in a daze more than anything, so I tell work that I'm not coming in and go home and pack. I had to hang around for a bit to get some money from my credit union, but I head out arrive at my Grandpa King's a few hours later.

She had died early in the morning (about 5:29am I believe). Her heart just gave out. We were all expecting it, we just didn't know when. Her body was pretty frail and broken, she had so many health issues I don't even know where to start with them.

I handled it okay. To be honest, I was a little scared that I wasn't sadder. After talking to my mom about it, her theory sounds about right. For one thing, I've grown up with death. It seems every few years it's someone else in my family that's dying. Robin (sister), Christopher (brother), my dad, Karen (aunt), Mattie Lou (aunt), Jared (cousin), Grandma Lion, and now Grandma King. There have been a few others, but those are in the family that I really know. I guess I've just become a bit desensitized to it. Then there's the whole "how men and women handle it differently". Which I can believe. My Uncle Chuck was out in my grandparent's flower bed, doing some weeding. I think it's easier for men if there's a task, and we just tackle that task. Just seems like an easier way of handling it? I dunno.

Anyhow, most of Tuesday I hung out at my Aunt Debbie's, eating and drinking with my family. It was nice to just sit around and talk (considering the circumstances). My little sister is still at the age where...I don't think she quite gets it. I guess that's part of the blessing of being a child, hm? Heh, when my little sister arrived we basically just sat there playing each other's Pokémon games. *LOL*

So I spent the night and left the next morning, since my mom went to work that day and I really didn't see the need to stick around. Got home in the afternoon yesterday. Just kind of felt like being by myself, so just hung out in my room all day playing Chrono Chross.

I'll be going to work tomorrow, then going to the funeral on Saturday. I'm going to try and make it back in time for the party on Saturday night. I think that would do me some good, y'know?

I'm doing fine. More worried about my Grandpa King than anything. I know that Grandma King is out of pain, and she was in a lot of pain and on so many drugs...but they were married for what, 60? Almost 70 years? I can't imagine what he's going through. At least he has lots of family around him to help out.

Well, now to...go do stuff.

Oh yes, I forgot to mention this too.

I stepped down as the 2006 Press Coordinator for Sakura-Con. There are lots of reasons, but I think the top three were 1) I wasn't getting the job done (computer and family problems most recently), 2) I think I need a break. I'm gonna keep being a mod, but I want to enjoy myself at the con next year. I think Stef had the right idea last year with helping out here and there, but having no definate "at con" job so he could enjoy himself, and 3) I think I need to focus on me this year. I'll be getting a second job, which wouldn't have left me much time to focus on Sakura-con. There are a few other little reasons, but those are the main ones.