Insanity

Sometimes I wonder if most of my problems are of my own doing. If some event that I take part in initiates those problems.

I chose to rent a house again...despite all the issues that happened at the Bellevue house.

I'm just tired of trying to motivate myself to do stuff. It shouldn't be, but it's exhausting to tell myself, "Stephen, you need to do this, you need to do that."

I only seem to go to friends these days when I have something to bitch about...so I don't think I've been going to my friends as much since I feel pretty guilty about that.

I've just been really stressed and it's just been difficult lately dealing with it. I'm 28, in fairly poor health, don't have any kind of savings, don't really have any kind of "hard" skills.

I've just felt very powerless lately. *sigh*

But let's try and add something positive into this. :)

The apartment is nice, if small. Currently, I'm living with Colin (fearless_son) and a co-worker of Whitney's, Anne. Been going pretty well there. While it's an adjustment, at least it won't have the upkeep the Weng House had.

Despite feeling like I'm not doing a stellar job, I'm doing pretty well at MS. I just need to get working on my hard skills and I think I can really succeed here. I <3 Globex. :)

Started playing some Dead Space last night...I really like that game. Been getting harder to hate on EA lately.

I've been...fairly good on my diet habits. Trying to watch how much I drink (not that I've been drinking much lately anyway). Trying VERY hard to watch my portions, which I think is what is hurting me. It's just so hard to not eat that third, fourth, or fifth slice of pizza. ^_^

I miss everyone. I wish I could just have a huge, giant party somewhere and invite everyone.