Today

[dudelovenext]

Maybe you're right...maybe I do need to get laid. `^_^

You know, today started out really well. I got plenty of sleep, I woke up feeling in good spirits. I got my morning mocha, and the day seemed like it was going to be great.

Then I started thinking about...my past, and I got a bit down. I got really distracted, so I kind of forgot it...but in the back of my mind, I didn't forget.

I went to the gym and worked out. Had an awesome workout and then headed to Yoshinobo's. Even though everyone was there...I just felt more down.

I got through dinner okay. Stef shared his sake with me (thanks Stef!) and I had a Yakitori combo, though whether it was from my mood or what I didn't finish the whole thing. I kind of felt like leaving, but I stuck around for a while and listened into some...interesting conversations. :) *LOL* Reneé, Alexis, and I'la...they crack me up. :)

I left, and Reneé called me afterwards (she could obviously tell I wasn't on the up and up). We chatted for a bit, and I do appreciate her effort to talk to me and find out what was up. *hugs*

I'm not even fully sure why I'm so down. I start to feel guilty when I bitch about my life cause, and this isn't bragging or anything, but I have it pretty good. I have a good job, I (for the most part) have my health, I have most of the things I want...

No, there's just a dozen little things, and they're all picking away at my mind.

Anyways, I'll probably see most everyone tomorrow. :)

Comments

[gshock99.livejournal.com]

i didn't know you like mocha :o but anyways, if you ever need someone to talk/rant/vent to, i'll be more than happy to listen ^_^ i hope you feel better soon. feeling down sucks, especially when you can't figure out exactly why you're down.... >< *hugs*

[dudelovenext.livejournal.com]

Yep, I have a bit of a weakness for them. They're tasty and give me lots of energy. :)

Aw, thank you. *hugs* That's really sweet of you to offer.

I think what's got me down in a lot of little things. And right now there's not a whole lot I can do about any of them. `^_^

[kurthy133.livejournal.com]

I hope you're feeling ok~

*gives hugs*
<3

[dudelovenext.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

Thank you. :) I'm hanging in there. Just kind of feels like there's a little raincloud above me personally, y'know? `^_^

Aww

[hentainobaka.livejournal.com]

Hang in there. I will see you today, right? ;)

Re: Aww

[dudelovenext.livejournal.com]

It was good to see you today. :) I told Anne she need to catch up on One Piece...we'll have to have another watching soon. :)

Yeah

[hentainobaka.livejournal.com]

She has some watching to do. Hopefully she will get caught up soon. :)

[quetz.livejournal.com]

MUSIC: Filter, Take A Picture

For what it's worth, I thought everyone seemed a bit out of sorts last night. Perhaps it was me, considering how hard I was straining not to ruin it for Renee...

Went out to Pagliacci's with Nate & Kelcey afer dropping I'la off at home, so that Nate could finally get something to eat. After that, I had to go home and practice katas until about 2am...which I might suggest for you, as well: Focusing on the now, your immediate physicality, helps remove your mind from the realm of possibles.

See you in an couple hours.

[dudelovenext.livejournal.com]

Really? Maybe I was just too out of it to notice then. `^_^

What's "katas"?

I'm gonna start practicing Qigong and see if that helps at all.

[quetz.livejournal.com]

A kata is a basic form in martial arts. For instance, the first white-belt-level kata is Chon-Ji:

(Assume the cardinal directions are labeled A,B,C,& D)
Start from parallel ready-stance.
1. Step the left foot to B, forming a left front stance, facing B. Execute a left forearm low block.
2. Step the right foot to B, forming a right front stance, facing B. Execute a right midsection punch.
3. Step the right foot to A turning clockwise, forming a right front stance, facing A. Execute a right forearm low block.
4. Step the left foot to A, forming a left front stance, facing A. Execute a left midsection punch.
5. Step the left foot to D, forming a left front stance, facing D. Execute a left forearm low block.
6. Step the right foot to D, forming a right front stance, facing D. Execute a right midsection punch.
7. Step the right foot to C turning clockwise, forming a right front stance, facing C. Execute a right forearm low block.
8. Step the left foot to C, forming a left front stance, facing C. Execute a left midsection punch.
9. Step the left foot to A, forming a right back stance, facing A. Execute a left inner forearm block.
10. Step the right foot to A, forming a right front stance, facing A. Execute a right midsection punch.
11. Step the right foot to B turning clockwise, forming a left back stance, facing B. Execute a right inner forearm block.
12. Step the left foot to B, forming a left front stance, facing B. Execute a left midsection punch.
13. Step the left foot to C, forming a right back stance, facing C. Execute a left inner forearm block.
14. Step the right foot to C, forming a right front stance, facing C. Execute a right midsection punch.
15. Step the right foot to D turning clockwise, forming a left back stance, facing D. Execute a right inner forearm block.
16. Step the left foot to D, forming a left front stance, facing D. Execute a left midsection punch.
17. Step the right foot to D, forming a right front stance, facing D. Execute a right midsection punch.
18. Step the right foot to C, forming a left front stance, facing D. Execute a left midsection punch.
19. Step the left foot to C, forming a right front stance, facing D. Execute a right midsection punch.

Easy, ne?

[dudelovenext.livejournal.com]

Ummmm.......

Yeah. `^_^

[ryuumi.livejournal.com]

I'm so glad we got to have lunch on Thursday - it was really nice to just sit and chat...we definitely should do more of that when I'm up...but in the meantime, take care of yourself, and feel free to give me a ring if you ever feel you need to talk to someone! ^_^

I can't believe some of things I said last night...but on the bright side, at least I *can* remember what I said last night...^_^;;;;

[dudelovenext.livejournal.com]

I was glad I could meet up with you, even if I wasn't all with it completely. `^_^

Yeah, whenever you are up let me know. Next time I'll drink a mocha or something beforehand. Or maybe we'll go get one together. *LOL*

And thanks for the offer. *hugs* I might just take you up on that. I get a little embarrassed to go into great detail on my LJ...hell, even to my closest friends I feel little embarrassed just because my problems seem so...small. -_- Anyway! :)

*LOL* You were hilarious. I need to get a little microphone and set it up in between you three so I can listen in. ;)