Day 1

[dudelovenext]

So, yes. No more liquor for me for a while. Several reasons why.

• It's not gonna help me lose weight, and just beyond that, it's not so good for ya.
  
• I didn't think I spent that much on liquor. Like, oh, maybe $50 a month or something. WRONG! I looked through my Money files and I've been spending at least $150 a month. YOW. And that's JUST for stuff at home!
  
• I don't feel like I have a problem right now...but it can easily turn into one.
  
• The feelings that everyone have expressed about my drinking. Certainly I'm not an angry drunk, and of course I have no problem with making myself look foolish (I think it's important to be able to laugh at yourself), but a few times when I've been drunk I wasn't happy afterwards how I acted.

Will this be hard? Yes. Will I be tempted? Oh hell yes. While I'd like to say that I'll only stop for like a month, shouldn't this be a lifestyle change? Hasn't the way I've been drinking lately let me know that I don't really have control? I'd like to think that I could go somewhere, have a drink, and that's it. That will be something I'll really have to think about.

I'll be off the booze for at least a month. I might re-evaluate after that. What about King's Cup? What about when I go to Hawaii? What about when I go clubbing? For a party person like me, it's extremely hard to avoid liquor.

We'll see how this goes...yes, I've "cried wolf" before...but, I guess for me, it's extremely difficult to stop. It's too much fun.

Hm, maybe I really do have an addiction. I was just about to compare my drinking to smoking. It's easy to say that "I'll stop", but it's even easier to start back up again. `^_^ The addiction itself I guess can be worse than my drinking habits or the way I act (again, just because I'm not a bad drunk (usually)).