Communication
Dec. 2nd, 2004 09:51 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dudelovenextWell, that wasn't fun. I just called Jeni...yeah, it's done with.
I didn't really want to call her, but I didn't want to leave her hanging. She said she pretty much wrote me off anyway...but at least it's done and over with. I am sorry I hurt her, though. :( I just don't think she was the one for me.
Why does there seem to be this problem lately in my life? I seem to have a hard time communicating with some people, and for a few others, communicating to me?
I know it's not availability. I typically get back to everyone...I have e-mail and a cell phone.
Am I hard to talk to? I don't think so. I have been quieter lately...but I also listen.
Maybe I've done something to offend certain individuals? That's pure speculation...
I just wish people would talk to me.
What am I even saying here? Just that a few people who mean something to me are, just in my view, not responding to me.
I know I have a lot going on (death, school, house stuff) so I guess I have a right to feel kind of down...but I hate that feeling. I want to be my talkative, happy self again.
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Date: 2004-12-03 06:16 am (UTC)On the second note, this season is busy as hell. I wish Christmas was more about people getting together and less about buying crap, etc. December has become the month of stress for many. I suspect things like that are intereferring with communications.
*hugs* But we all still love you!
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Date: 2004-12-03 08:03 am (UTC)I know! I do seem to be getting together with some people...I would like to see everyone at least once this month. That's what this season's for! Hopefully I'll get to see you soon. :)
*hugs* You're too sweet I'la! Thank you. :) *feels loved*
Why do I feel like Linus?
Date: 2004-12-04 04:19 am (UTC)Let's try to feel more like the Peanuts gang at the end of the Charlie Brown Christmas Special, okay?
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Date: 2004-12-03 06:38 am (UTC).
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What? Ok fine, you rock. There i said it. Stop looking at me! Stop reading this! :X
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Date: 2004-12-03 06:53 am (UTC)~Bea
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Date: 2004-12-03 07:38 pm (UTC)I would love to come and visit everyone, too. Its been since September since I have. :/ 90 some days. I was _supposed_ to come for Christmas, but I believe I won't be able to stay at Rachel's (Tita's) house. I'm upset that I can't come...and I really wanted to. I respect someone's family Christmas, and wouldn't quite want to intrude on something like that.(I was sort of against that to begin with.)I just wish there was another way. :/ But there isn't, really. Lol.
It'll be mid-January until I can come down again. *laughs* XD Or Feb, when I have my braces on. XD! But its okay. I just have to figure out how to survive another 60 days without seeing Nathan, and everyone else. >~~< *brain fizzles*
Hum whenever you're stressed, you should go Saxy or Quetz hunting. :D <3 You should plan a Christmas something with them and some others, ne? Take care. Laundry calls. x.x *LD hugs*
~Bea
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Date: 2004-12-04 04:21 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-03 08:08 am (UTC)But, I have been moody lately, so I just hope I haven't come across to people as moody. -_-
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Date: 2004-12-03 08:29 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-03 08:34 am (UTC)I'm sure they will. Right now is just one of those slumps...the good thing is I'm generally pretty optimistic about things, so the ray of light will break through shortly...I hope.
Yah for sushi and drinks! :)
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Date: 2004-12-03 08:45 am (UTC)...
Date: 2004-12-03 04:11 pm (UTC):X
Am I going to hell?
*whimpers.*
;)
-Karen
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Date: 2004-12-04 08:45 am (UTC)*tries to hide yaoi thoughts*
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Date: 2004-12-03 09:27 am (UTC)And I didn't need closure (though it came out like that the conversation I had with her). I called her cause I didn't want leave her hanging.
SK
Date: 2004-12-03 04:28 pm (UTC)It's best you called her at some point anyway.
A month isn't altogether THAT long, I mean it's not like you two were seriously dating, to my knowledge...
I'm still dating Jon and I saw him for the first time in two months.
Time is relative. Yes, you could have called her soon and you knew where it all stood sooner than a month; but nobody's perfect.
Except perhaps, our good man weaver. I think he's practically perfect in every way.
I admire his tact and fine words of wisdom. I'm just astounded at his level of maturity and responsibility. It makes me so proud to know you had a room-mate like that previously.
I think we're all blessed to have gotten to know weaver.
Off the topic of my favorite, all wisdom-ous weaver...
It was GREAT to have lunch yesterday. I know I talked a lot... hm.
Thanks for lunch-- that was kind of you.
I enjoyed the brief visit.
I STILL have to see your new dwelling.
You rock, you rock, and you rock.
I never have problems communicating with you.
I would attribute it to being the busy season, and from a spiritual perspective for me; the dark half of the year is always a little hard to get things out there. Hang in there, sometimes we all need a little time in the dark before we can truly see what's happening around us and understand things.
But don't worry. Light will return and you'll be all the stronger for it.
Jeah. You're looking great btw.
Try to lay off the... numbing agents though, hehehehe. *HUGS*
Maybe we'll find some way to visit before the holiday again; maybe not.
MANY MANY *hugs*
-Karen
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Date: 2004-12-03 06:51 pm (UTC)Should I have called her sooner? I think so. She didn't seem to want to listen...well, it's over with anyway...
Weaver just doesn't have any tact. I feel a bit sorry for him in that regard. But, I doubt I'll interact with him that much from here on out, so not a big deal. I do like your description of him, though. :)
Yesterday was great! *hugs* I'm just sorry I was so quiet...I didn't want to bring the mood down. `^_^ No, it's okay you talked, lately I've just been quiet, y'know? I'm sure once I get things a little more organized in my life and have fully dealt with recent events, I'll be my normal chipper self. :)
I'm not sure if I rock quite as much as you, though. And thank, you communicate very well yourself. I remember when you used to be kind of shy and quiet. Heh, heh. So long ago...
Well, I will have to invite you over soon. Maybe a mini-Christmasy party or something. :) Get a little eggnog and rum in ya! :)
....oh, maybe I should lay off of that. Yeah, after Tuesday night...`````````^_^ You are right...
I think we'll find a way to visit each other soon. :)
Thank you Karen. *hugs* It's great to have a friend like you. *hugs*
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Date: 2004-12-03 07:13 pm (UTC)It really depends on circumstance. You're just one of those people who I met in a less-than-normal circumstance at the time.
I still muse over the fact you thought I was mouse-y...
omgs, lol.
Dude, SK... I'm hungry! The swimming is already boosting my metabolism I think. jeez, that was fast. Two times this week and I'm already feeling elevated hunger? lol.
-Karen
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Date: 2004-12-03 07:14 pm (UTC)is that good?
-Karen
Muahahaha...
Date: 2004-12-04 04:25 am (UTC)Re: SK
Date: 2004-12-20 12:08 am (UTC)Hm.
Date: 2004-12-03 04:14 pm (UTC)that I dated last February.
But I know that's because you're that kind of guy.
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Date: 2004-12-04 01:00 am (UTC)I've been really bad at communicating with people lately.. I guess my mind is elsewhere.
Anyway, I really hope I haven't hurt you for any reason :)
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Date: 2004-12-04 01:32 am (UTC)No, though certain people I've been trying to hang out with, it's even getting a response.
And I understand that I'm not the center of the world or anything. :) But still, a response back after SEVERAL attempts at communication would be nice (again, not talking about you).
That would be cool, maybe after I get paid we can do lunch or something! I know things are busy for everyone this month...but hopefully we can find the time.
And glad to hear that you're feeling better...and congrats on the job! What'd you get for a job?
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Date: 2004-12-04 04:11 am (UTC)One, this was coming anyway, and it's time it was resolved. It isn't like you didn't see it coming...and I tell you truly that if you're wearing a mask to be the person somebody else needs instead of seeing your own face in the mirror, you're only hurting yourself and those around you, and wasting everyone's time to boot.
Two, friends wax and wane like moonshadows...people are difficult to get in touch with, or they move away, and you don't see them. Others walk on to stand in the limelight of your personal theatre. This happens, and is inevitable no matter how much effort you put in. I barely see my college friends anymore, and never anyone from high school.
If you're down, I'll listen and pour the drinks. If you're up, well, I'll still listen and pour the drinks.
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Date: 2004-12-04 08:55 am (UTC)