Communication

[dudelovenext]

Well, that wasn't fun. I just called Jeni...yeah, it's done with.

I didn't really want to call her, but I didn't want to leave her hanging. She said she pretty much wrote me off anyway...but at least it's done and over with. I am sorry I hurt her, though. :( I just don't think she was the one for me.

Why does there seem to be this problem lately in my life? I seem to have a hard time communicating with some people, and for a few others, communicating to me?

I know it's not availability. I typically get back to everyone...I have e-mail and a cell phone.

Am I hard to talk to? I don't think so. I have been quieter lately...but I also listen.

Maybe I've done something to offend certain individuals? That's pure speculation...

I just wish people would talk to me.

What am I even saying here? Just that a few people who mean something to me are, just in my view, not responding to me.

I know I have a lot going on (death, school, house stuff) so I guess I have a right to feel kind of down...but I hate that feeling. I want to be my talkative, happy self again.

Comments

[raend.livejournal.com]

Bleh, I know how you feel about communication issues. >.< You've been going through some pretty tough times, I see. :/ *hugs* It'll get better. I'm sorry.

~Bea

[dudelovenext.livejournal.com]

*nods* Hasn't been fun. *hugs* But thank you. I wish I could see you soon!

[raend.livejournal.com]

It definately hasn't been sounding like fun. I've been keeping up with all of your posts since your roomies started dispersing. :/ So stressful~ but you've really held your own in the situation. I'm impressed. :O

I would love to come and visit everyone, too. Its been since September since I have. :/ 90 some days. I was _supposed_ to come for Christmas, but I believe I won't be able to stay at Rachel's (Tita's) house. I'm upset that I can't come...and I really wanted to. I respect someone's family Christmas, and wouldn't quite want to intrude on something like that.(I was sort of against that to begin with.)I just wish there was another way. :/ But there isn't, really. Lol.

It'll be mid-January until I can come down again. *laughs* XD Or Feb, when I have my braces on. XD! But its okay. I just have to figure out how to survive another 60 days without seeing Nathan, and everyone else. >~~< *brain fizzles*

Hum whenever you're stressed, you should go Saxy or Quetz hunting. :D <3 You should plan a Christmas something with them and some others, ne? Take care. Laundry calls. x.x *LD hugs*

~Bea

[quetz.livejournal.com]

Hey, anyone who wants to get together for Xmas is welcome over at my Dad's place to join me and about a dozen of my wicked stepmother's family. Please! Don't let me be the only one!